February 28, 2036
I don't believe I've been getting off to a very good start. I feel like I'm clumsy, and lost here at Beata, and to be honest, I want to go home. Every corner I turn, there seems to be some new trial of sorts waiting for me, and some new way to become "visible". In fact, there was one incident today that nearly made me just want to run away from this place for good. I'm such a coward, I feel. But then, how could you expect someone as weak as me get any more powerful? Apparently, I provoked a girl and accidentally nearly started a fight in front of a prefect of my new house. I doubt that I'll leave a good impression with him. I don't think that girl from Autumn particularly likes me either. I hate how bad I am with people, I hat how scared and stuttering I am, I hate it I hate it I hate it! And today, being one of those days where I've felt a little bolder... It's only gotten me into trouble. Would it take care of all my problems, just to let myself evaporate and fade away? I doubt it. I hope things will get better...
